Dear Eimear,

Your reading shows that there has been difficulties in your relationship for at least the past 6-9 months. During this time the cards indicate that your boyfriend has wanted to spend time outside the relationship, although there had previously been a lot of time discussing both your plans for the future.
Your boyfriend seems to have difficulty with commitment at the present time, and although he tells you that he doesn't love you the cards indicte that there is still a lot of feelings for each other.
For this relationship to have a chance in the future it's you who needs to gain the strength to let the relationship go so it may be healed and come back at a later stage.
Although this is extremely hard to do, the reading indicates that your boyfriend will be so taken back by your decision that he will then realise his real feelings for you. You must explain to him that you can't be with anyone who says they don't love you and that you deserve someone who does.
You come across as having been carrying this burden on your own as you have felt you can't talk to anyone. Remember it's your boyfriend that's having the fears, not you.
Try to catch up with friends that you seem to have lost touch with during this trasition.
Take care and have faith in yourself first and foremost!